Today was a bit of a rough day for me. I've just felt out of it.
I woke up to do some freezer meal prep and realized that just maybe I'd left the meat in the fridge too long and it might have spoiled. :P I was torn about keeping it or throwing it out and wasting food and money... I was frustrated.
Then we were trying to coordinate going on a hike with my brother and timing and location didn't work out the way we planned. We did have a nice walk in a park up the canyon and our son had a blast throwing rocks in the river. We also did some service and picked up some trash.
It was good, but I still felt out of it.
On our way back, I shared with my husband how I'm feeling overwhelmed with work and managing life and things I'd like to do better as a mom. I also shared my anxiety over the meat and frustration at myself for not making time for freezer meal prep earlier in the week.
My sweet and ever insightful husband reminded me that God is aware of me and how I am feeling. He will help me as I turn to Him.
Before we went home, we stopped at the grocery store to get eggs and a few other items. We also decided to stop at the in-store deli for a little lunch.
As we were eating, our son was walking around and getting things off the shelves, bringing them back to us and sometimes even putting them on the counter by the cash register so we could pay for them and then he could eat them. Smart kid. :)
Out of the blue, my husband turned to me and asked, "Do you feel beautiful?"
In my head I'm thinking, "Well dear, I haven't showered, my hair is in a messy bun, I'm not wearing make up or contacts. I'm also sweaty and wearing dirty clothes, so no not really."
I thought about brushing it off and saying, "yeah, sure" or something like that. But, I decided to honest and said, "No, not really right now."
Then he grabbed my hand and said, "Honey, nothing is more beautiful than a loving mother."
I just about lost it. A few tears did leak down my cheek (yes, in the middle of the grocery store).
He said exactly what I needed.
Someone to tell me I am loved.
Someone to tell me I am beautiful.
Someone to tell me I am succeeding as a mom.
I realized that when he asked me if I thought I was beautiful, I was thinking only of physical beauty. I forgot that the beauty of the soul is even stronger. I was forgetting my beautiful mother heart.
If you're a young mom having one of those days where you're exhausted, laundry isn't done, and you don't remember the last time you showered, remember your beautiful mother heart.
If you're an mom of teenagers having one of those days where you're tired from waiting up at night, sick of being a taxi driver, and wondering how you're going to feed all your children's friends next weekend, remember your mother heart.
If you're an empty nester feeling lonely, wishing you'd done things differently when your kids were at home, remember you still have a mother heart.
If you're single or don't have children, wondering when that day will come, wishing that you had children of your own, remember you have a mother heart too.
As women, our mother hearts make us beautiful. In any stage of life, we can use the God-given nature we have to nurture and love others. When we serve and cherish those around us, our true inner beauty shines through magnifying our physical beauty radiantly.
For, there is nothing more beautiful.